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Welcome to my Enigma
![]() ![]() ![]() JANUARY-FEBRUARY 2001
![]() I began to notice that the week before my period, the wondrous PMS time,
![]() that my normal PMS was changing. The mood swings got more severe.
![]() Higher highs, lower lows. Being on edge one minute and sobbing the next.
![]() I was not experiencing just the usual crankiness or sadness that I
![]() got once a blue moon. It was now every month and becoming
![]() more and more severe.
![]() I noticed my sleeping pattern becoming more and more erratic.
![]() I would go to bed about 10:30 PM, wake up at 2:00 am and be ready to start the day,
![]() without being tired. Every week I was getting less and less sleep.
Every week missing sleep less and less.
My boyfriend and I have decided to open up a joint checking
account for our household bills. If you have not concluded by now
we do live together. I needed to set up a direct deposit of my check
from work to our new account. I am afraid to do this.
Is it a trust issue?
No. I do not feel like he is going to take my money.
Then what do I feel?
I think he and my mother have talked and want me to get a
joint account with him so when I have to going into a mental
hospital they can still take care of my bills.
Paranoia sets in
I had a dream. Well, more like a nightmare. It was about my boyfriend.
In my dream we were at this party. The next thing I know I
was looking for him. I finally found him.
He was in a bathroom with another woman hanging all over him.
I became really upset. He told me that we were over.
He was very rude in my dream and it hurt me deeply.
He is nothing like that in real life.
I woke up crying, which woke him up.
He held me tightly and finally the sobbing stopped.
It seemed so real.
I could feel the pain.
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