Welcome to my Enigma
MusicI love music. All kinds mostly. You know how you hear a song from
a group and you just seem to be able to relate to the words.
They describe your most inner thoughts, desires, dreams, even your fears.
There has been one group whose song jumped right out at me over the air waves.
It really described how I felt about this "Thing"
I am not sure what this song means to the group who performs it or the one who wrote it.
But when I heard it, I knew it described how I felt.
I have not been able to contact this group to see if it is okay for me to put their lyrics on my web site.
Therefore, I have listed the address of their web site from which I got them.
Lets hope I do not start some legal hassle. I only list their song because I feel it
describes my feelings.
The group is called "Linkin Park"
their song is called "Crawling"
Crawling in my skin These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall Confusing what is real
There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming / confusing
This lack of self control I fear is never ending
Controlling / I can't seem, To find myself again, My walls are closing in
[Without a sense of confidence / I'm convinced
there's just too much pressure to take]
I've felt this way before
So insecure
Discomfort, endlessly has pulled itself upon me, Distracting / reacting
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection,
It's haunting how I can't seem To find myself again
My walls are closing in
[Without a sense of confidence / I'm convinced
there's just too much pressure to take]
I've felt this way before
So insecure...
Another group's music whom I seem to relate to is
"STAIND". Their song "Its Been Awhile"
is how I feel when I am depressed about the what I "feel" I
am doing to the wonderful relationship with my boyfriend I am
in right now. My boyfriend has always been so supportive and
patient through out this whole thing. Most would have left by now.
I feel bad he gets the brunt of my racing emotions.
I edited some of the words in the song with " * " incase I would get in trouble for having them on my site.
In my personal opinion I feel the "Words" represent the strong emotions of this song and
it would not be the same with out them.
Its Been Awhile
It's been awhile, since I could hold my head up high,
It's been awhile, since I first saw you.
It's been awhile, since I could stand on my own two feet again,
It's been awhile, Since I could call you.
But everything I can't remember, as f*cked up as it all may seem,
the consequences that I've rendered, I've stretched myself beyond my means.
It's been awhile since I could say that I wasn't addicted.
It's been awhile since I could say I love myself as well.
It's been awhile since I've gone and f*cked things up just like I always do,
It's been awhile, but all that sh*t seems to disappear when I'm with you.
But everything I can't remember, as f*cked up as it may seem,
The consequences that I've rendered, I've gone and f*cked things up again.
Why must I feel this way
Just make this go away,
Just one more peaceful day
It's been awhile, since I could look at myself straight.
It's been awhile, since I said I'm sorry.
It's been awhile, since I've seen the way the candle lights your face.
It's been awhile, but I can still remember just the way you taste.
But everything I can't remember as f*cked up as it all may seem to be,
I know it's me, I cannot blame this on my father he did the best he could for me.
It's been awhile, since I could hold my head up high
and it's been awhile since I said I'm sorry.
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