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Welcome to my Enigma
![]() ![]() ![]() MARCH 2001
![]() One weekend in March 2001 I spent the entire weekend in tears.
![]() To the point that my boyfriend did not know what to do to
![]() help me so he called my sister to come pick me up and take me
![]() out of the house for a while.
![]() I explained to her that I did not know what was going on with me.
![]() I was sad about nothing. Nothing at all!
![]() But I sobbed like I just lost everything in the world that was dear to me.
![]() Needless to say, I did not go to work that following Monday.
![]() Instead I called my medical doctor, explained what I was experiencing and
![]() demanded that I see him today.
![]() I went and do you know what I got out of that visit.
![]() Well besides an office visit bill, I got handed a sample box of
![]() Prozac and him telling me he had know idea what was wrong with me.
![]() I was to take 1 20 mg pill a day for a week. The week before
![]() my period. So I did this. After all, he's the doctor...right?
![]() I started searching the internet for anything on this drug that I could find.
![]() I found out that the company who produces Prozac is Lilly,
![]() and they also produce Sarafem too. Basically Sarafem is Prozac,
![]() but with vitamin B6 added which is suppose to help a mood levels.
![]() Who knows if this is true, because the second doctor I seen told me this...
![]() but that's jumping ahead into the story.
![]() That is when I found out that my doctor thought I had P.M.D.D. or
![]() Pre Menstrual Dysphoric Disorder. A severe form of PMS.
![]() My research on the web began to get more intense as I was searching
![]() for answers. I felt, if the doctors cant help me then I must start helping myself.
![]() ![]() ![]() April 2001
![]() By April I was seeing NO improvement so I decided to call the o'l doc again.
![]() I ended up leaving a message. A day later his nurse called me back.
![]() I re-explained that I had not seen any improvements and wanted to know what to do.
![]() She said the doctor instructions were to take 1 20 mg Prozac pill everyday
![]() from now on and call him back in a month. Then, (this is the kicker)
![]() she said he asked her "who prescribed her to take 1 Prozac pill
![]() a day the week before her period?" and the nurse responded
![]() to him "You did Doctor." I was appalled.
![]() I told her that indeed it was him that prescribed it to me.
![]() Now what do I do? Well I had decided that I would start taking
![]() Prozac 1 per day and keep searching the web for any help
![]() I could find on my own and give it one more month.
![]() I had another dream this month about my boyfriend
![]() cheating on me. I did not wake up crying but I could feel
![]() the pain like it was real. It set my mood for the rest of that
![]() weekend. Leaving feeling very low and in tears.
![]() Maybe in my subconsconsious I am fearing rejection.
![]() After all, I had a really shitty marriage.
![]() My ex preferred 900 numbers too me.
![]() Or maybe the problem was me?
![]() Maybe I drove them away.
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